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My Dark. Vanessa by Kate Elizabeth Russell is the kind of book that really gets under your skin.
The subject matter is so dark, yet the story so absorbing.
This book tells the story of Vanessa Wye, a 15 year old student who is being groomed by her 45 year old English teacher Jacob Strane.
Told from Vanessa’s perspective, and set between 1994-2014, this book was disturbing in so many ways.... Vanessa truly believes Strane is in love with her, and doesn’t see herself as a victim.
This was a gripping, raw read that had me thinking about it long after I finished reading.
I have recommended it to my friends, and I will look out for more works from the author.

Thank you to the author, publisher and Netgalley for allowing me to read in return for an honest review.

5stars

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Thanks netgalley for an opportunity to review this title.

This book blow me away and was unputdownable! Its shocking and horrific and a brilliant debut novel. I can highly recommend it and will defiantly be recommending it to the 2000+ members of my online book club.

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3,5 Stars rounded up to 4.

„My Dark Vanessa“ is one of the most unusual books I have ever read. It is dark, disturbing and even horrifying.

Vanessa is 15 when she meets her teacher Jacob Strane. She is different than most of the other girls. She likes being alone and she does not feel the need for friends. Like every teen she is hungry for attention and her growing interest in men is quite normal for a girl her age. Strane on the other hand, is a sexual predator. He likes young girls and he is very good at spotting the girl who will be the one to fall into his trap. He showers Vanessa with compliments about how special, how fascinating her darker site is, how brilliant she is and how matured. He is a master manipulator and he makes Vanessa think, that she is in control and that she always can say no. But Vanessa is submissive and naive although she sees herself as clever and grownup. She gets obsessed with Strane and this obsession will never stop.

The book is not an easy read and the story is also not easy. Strane is obvious a creep and very manipulative but there is maybe a different site to him. Or maybe Vanessa just wants to believe it. The story is told from her point of view in two timelines so we only see Strane through her eyes. She is so enamored and so influenced by him that she cannot let him go. Until she was 22 there was never another man than him in her life. She craves his attention, his admiration and his love because she does not get it somewhere else and she never tries to get it somewhere else. She needs this to be a love story.

This was such an uncomfortable read. It was hard for me to read what became of Vanessa and how she sugarcoated Strane and what he did to her. But the book asks also the question if it possible, under any circumstances, that Vanessa at 15 was maybe matured enough that she knew what she was doing and that it would be OK to be with a 45 years old man. I found the sex scenes to be cringe worthy and I am not sure if I really got what Vanessa was seeing and looking for in Strane. Vanessa refuses to see herself as a victim and that point gave me a lot to think about. I can understand that she does not want to be labelled as a victim and marked for life. But that made it harder to swallow that she did not see that Strane made her exactly that.

My only problem with the book was that it was too long and it is told very slow and detailed. It drags sometimes a little bit although the writing is very good. But there is too much detail, too much every day stuff and sometimes I got confused with the two timelines. I needed almost two weeks to finish it and it felt way too long, especially because it was such an uncomfortable story.

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Vanessa, at 15: passionately in love with her 45-year-old teacher.
Vanessa, at 32: prompted by #metoo into reckoning with the grooming and abuse that has defined her life.

Told through the victim’s romance-warped lens, My Dark Vanessa ’s protagonist defends her abuse as a ‘love story’… then gradually comes to a different realisation. A young girl believes herself to be singled-out, special, passionately in love, when in fact she is being exploited. It’s a tale as old as time.

Charting that tale’s path, the novel is strewn with high- and pop-culture references: Titus Andronicus; Cadenus & Vanessa; Nabokov of course; films like Pretty Baby and American Beauty; 'My Sharona'; Fiona Apple’s ‘Criminal’ music video, Monica Lewinsky and Britney Spears. The more recent ones coincide with the novel’s late 90s/early 00s setting and are an interesting marker of the cultural distance between then and now—it feels wider than a mere two decades.

These references add cultural context: a history of glamorising and enabling such crimes and of sexualising young girls. Meanwhile, My Dark Vanessa presents us with its own salacious story and dark, gothic aesthetic of self-destruction. Integral to Vanessa’s perspective is her romanticisation of her abuse, so it follows that this novel describes abuse in romantic terms. Does it overstep and become that which it seeks to criticise? Russell deliberately keeps these waters murky. Maybe it was her intention make the reader feel complicit, or perhaps manipulated like Vanessa. Maybe not. I just wish there had been more beams of clear light cutting through the haze.

The story flows easily and it becomes impossible to put this book down. However, I never believed Vanessa was anything more than the author’s construct (which of course, all fictional characters are, but it’s the illusion of realness that we readers look for), and some of the writing here is pretty hackneyed.
Q: How many times can Vanessa bite/chew her lip/tongue/inside of her cheek?
A: 17, at least in the ARC version that I read.

If you’ve read Three Women, My Dark Vanessa reads a lot like the fictionalised version of Maggie’s story from that book. Both the details of the crime and the narrative voice are similar, right down to the odd portmanteaus (3W: ‘fearquick’, ‘shamehot’; MDV: ‘possumdead’, ‘antsmall’, ‘tender-condescending’). My guess is that if you like one of these books, you’ll like the other.

Every reader brings themselves to a book, and I think that’s especially true here. Your own experiences (or lack of), previous reading or engagement with this topic, demographic: these will all colour how you receive My Dark Vanessa. It’s certainly thought-provoking. Many readers will also find it powerfully affecting, but it was not that for me. 3 stars

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*Thank you to the author and Netgalley for giving me an ARC in exchange for an honest review*

<b>4 stars</b>

This was a strong debut novel for Russell. I can't say that I enjoyed reading it, for obvious reasons. When I read books with this sort of story it feels like I've witnessed something I wasnt supposed to see, like I've been exposed to someone's dirty secret and I need a good shower to rid myself of that feeling. So, enjoyable? No. It was repulsive and raw. The impact of a good writer. I can't say much more without spoiling it. My only complaint is that it felt a bit dragged out at times and I didn't particularly like the way the book ended, but maybe that's the kind of ending a book like this called for.

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I was drawn to this book as it featured I think in almost every 2020 book preview I read, on both sides of the Atlantic. A hugely hyped, zeitgeist-y debut novel attracting a huge advance.

Having read it, I can see why the fuss has been made - I expect this will be the most talked about and debated novel of the year.

It is a powerful but also deeply uncomfortable read: dealing with a subject matter which is dark but also very real.

It simultaneously confronts the reader not just with the terrible simplicity of the “act” (no one can only say crime) committed; but also simultaneously with the complexity of the wider issues raised: grooming, manipulation, victimhood, forgiveness (of self and others), consent, sexual agency, power dynamics, internet-shaming, avoidance strategies, guilt transference.

And perhaps most of all asking difficult but almost unanswerable questions about complicity: complicity of the silence of victims, of family (perhaps the most powerful scene in the novel features Vanessa, her mother and a dropped photograph), of authorities and establishments, of eye-witnesses and confidants, and even of an artistic world that celebrates Lolita as literature

An uncomfortable book to read and also to review.

It is also though a very tightly written novel, a horribly gripping and destabilising read infused with literary understanding and devastating and empathetic insight into character. Particularly remarkable for a debut novel in its focus and tightness.

My thanks to 4th Estate for an ARC via Netgalley.

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5* Disturbing Stars

From the first page read I was blown away with the masterful story storytelling of the life of Vanessa. We first meet Vanessa as a 15-year-old scholar who begins a forbidden affair with her 42-year-old English teacher in the boarding school she is attending. The story then alternates between the young Vanessa who is growing close to and relying on her “predator” and the present day 32-year-old Vanessa who is living a miserable life due to the choices she chose. The whole story is told from her point of view and experiencing her innermost thoughts and emotions.

The author’s writing is so engaging and compelling! I am astounded that this is her debut novel, it is simply unputdownable! I have found a new author whose destined to have a great future.

This was not a light and fluffy read. The story of Vanessa was very real, dark and thought provoking. It is by no means a love story where two people fall in love voluntarily.

Many thanks to 4th Estate, William Collins and NetGalley for my copy to read and review.

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Not my normal thing but I was attracted by the hype and thought that would make an accessible and gripping read. This book is excellent in the first third, sags in the middle and whilst i remember enjoying it more at the end I can't remember what happens (it has not been long since I read it). I found the scenes where Vanessa is at university particularly well done, the flatmate's difficulty in treating her as an adult able to make her own decision conflicting with the knowledge that all is not as it should be.

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In this novel we follow 15 year old Vanessa Wye from 1999 to 2014. Vanessa starts as a boarder at Browick College when she is immediately smitten by her English teacher, Jacob Strane. He then proceeds to groom her, something the reader is aware of, but the young, naive and flattered Vanessa perceives as love and affection. The novel moves back and forth through the intervening years as the troubled and damaged Vanessa struggles to cope with her changing reality of the situation.

The subject matter is of course upsetting and will anger and frustrate. As a debut novelist Kate Elizabeth Russell has tackled a heavy topic in a way that engages the reader and that is no mean feat.

Thanks to Netgalley and 4th Estate for a review copy.

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The story was told from Vanessa's perspective throughout; with the story taking place both in the past and present. This is a part of why it was so gripping that I couldn't put it down; as well as the story itself being so hauntingly tragic, yet full of hope and somewhat eye opening.

It made me feel somewhat conflicted throughout because although I knew the work is fictional, I still hated what has happening but I couldn't stop myself from reading on.

It's so sad to think that this story reflects the truth of what could have happened to many people in real life. It's terrifying to think that there are children putting themselves at fault and adults being vindictive and manipulative.

I was wrapped up in this story from the very first page: I could feel all of Vanessa's hopes for love and normalcy and then journeyed with her through her heartbreak, disbelief and denial. This book is so powerful and completely overwhelming.

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A truely heartbreaking look into the mind of a young woman, Vanessa, who at the age of 15 is groomed and abused by her teacher and continues to let him dominate her very existance throughout the rest of his life.
The way Vanessa is lead to believe that she is half of the romance to eclipse all romances and that everything is her choice and she is in control is interspersed with little moments of clarity where she questions her actions- and more importantly his- but remains steadfast in her belief that she was not a victim of abuse but instead a heroine of age-gap romance.
In many ways this book is hard to read and emphasises the extremely upsetting reality of how easy it is for predators to groom young people in certain situations and how those children are expected to expose themselves in their futures if the abuser is identified by another, almost regardless of the impact on their emotional wellbeing.
Dark, difficult but definitely worth reading.

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A star rating for this one... liked it, didn't like it, really liked it. It is a completely irrelevant way to approach discussing this book. It is a lengthy novel about sexual abuse, I mean, obviously you're not going to 'like' it... It is challenging to even decide where to start reviewing this one.

All the questions this book asks have incredibly obvious answers. She was 15, he was 45. He was her teacher, she was his student. There's no version of this that is not abuse. <i>So, that is it, right? </i>

But, that is where this book gets so good. To complicate something that uncomplicated, to take easy answers and instead pose impossible moral and philosophical questions. That's great storytelling.
Where do you draw a moral line? How do we decide agency? complicity? Why at 15 was it abuse, but at 18 it wasn't? What does saying 'yes' mean when the answer was coached? How does hindsight change perception? Can it be love then and abuse now?

This book could have been one-note, and exploitive, and gross. Instead it was thoughtful, unsettling, compelling and so complicated. I will be mulling on this one for a long time to come.

My thanks to the author, publisher, and NetGalley for the arc to review.

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This book certainly focuses on a topical issue. Its surface level concerns the first love and sexual awakening of a young girl, the dominant issue is that the love is for her English teacher. The first-person perspective of Vanessa takes the reader into the world of Vanessa at fifteen years of age and we see how their relationship begins and develops. This is explored via the memories of the now thirty-two year old Vanessa, who has looked at the relationship as love, but other allegations of abuse from other students highlight another perspective. That the man she thought loved her, is actually an abuser: a monster.
This is not an easy read, but it is an addictive one and raises many issues. The pace is steady, and I did find it a little too long, so the impact lessened for me at times. I think sharper editing would improve the effectiveness of this read greatly. Saying that, it's a novel that stays with you and certainly opens your eyes and makes you think deeply.
A difficult but important read.

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This made me so angry, but in a good way. The book talked about seuxal assault and child grooming and what it means to be a victim, so of course its gonna make you feel some emotions, mostly anger. I can't wait to read more from this author!

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My Dark Vanessa is a compelling, raw, disturbing, and heartbreaking, story that will stay with you a long time after you finish. It is well written and it was like you get lost in the words, the story is a hard topic it hits close to home for me. I just wanted to hug Vanessa. This book is dark. I don't want to go into the story cos i don't want to spoil it for others. As hard as this book was for me to read I did read but I did walked away and put it down then went back to it. just needed a breather now and again.

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This was such an incredible story. It handled a very dark and controversial subject matter very well. I felt for Vanessa in a way that is rare and shows the incredible skill of the writer. It is a dark story and disturbing in many different ways. It shows Strane's influence over a large portion of Vanessa's life and as a reader we get to see exactly what Strane costs her even when she's still unaware of the magnitude herself. The emotional depth in this is something i've not come across very often and i can't wait to read it again.

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This was an interesting story about a fifteen year old who has a sexual relationship with her teacher. It describes how this could come about and how it would affect both over the next 15 years. The most interesting part of the story (in my view...) is how the woman views the relationship (was she victim, willing participant or instigator?), how what she says varies from her actions and how her views change over time. Set against the action is a backdrop of discussion of many literature classics (including the eponymous Dark Vanessa). not the most comfortable reading material but well-written, intriguing and challenging.

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A member review on Netgalley by Sarah M says literally everything I wanted to say, better than I could have said it! So ideally, read that one:)
However, to fulfil my reviewer obligations I’ll add that I found this lyrical, unsparing and emotionally draining but definitely in the top 5 of novels I engaged with most fully in 2019. I sometimes feel wary when a book is described as ‘important’ because it smacks of worthiness, a social duty rather than reading for pleasure. My Dark Vanessa is a strange source of pleasure in that you flinch almost constantly ( several times I actually blurted out my horror and frustration in public!) but it was still gripping, unbearably sad and, yeah, important.

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3 Stars from me

Yes, 3, unpopular opinion I know. I do feel conflicted over this as it is not owing to the quality of the writing which, for the record, is excellent.

For me, My Dark Vanessa should have ended at about the 55% mark. Even up to this point I found the book a little laborious but I distinctly recall looking up to see how much of the book was left as I couldn't believe it hadn't ended, and it then being 58%. I truly felt the book had reached it's natural conclusion. (I did go on to finish the book but felt it really dragged after that point.)

The subject matter isn't great but that's not to say it wasn't a good story and an important story. This level of grooming and abuse goes on far too frequently and it is important that attention is drawn to the issue so that people can stop turning a blind eye out of misplaced politeness. However, having said that the books goes to great lengths to stress that both Stane and Vanessa see it more as a love story which, for me, muddies the waters massively on this being a positive message.

I would very much read something else by the same author as the depth and quality of the writing really was great, the characters were all credible and scenes and places were are well described.

Synopsis:

An era-defining novel about the relationship between a fifteen-year-old girl and her teacher

ALL HE DID WAS FALL IN LOVE WITH ME AND THE WORLD TURNED HIM INTO A MONSTER

Vanessa Wye was fifteen years old when she first had sex with her English teacher.

She is now thirty-two and in the storm of allegations against powerful men in 2017, the teacher, Jacob Strane, has just been accused of sexual abuse by another former student.

Vanessa is horrified by this news, because she is quite certain that the relationship she had with Strane wasn't abuse. It was love. She's sure of that.

Forced to rethink her past, to revisit everything that happened, Vanessa has to redefine the great love story of her life – her great sexual awakening – as rape. Now she must deal with the possibility that she might be a victim, and just one of many.

Nuanced, uncomfortable, bold and powerful, and as riveting as it is disturbing, My Dark Vanessa goes straight to the heart of some of the most complex issues our age is grappling with.

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A disturbing and at the same time a fascinating read. The subject matter here is dark and cringe inducing. This is the story of 15 year old Vanessa who begins an illicit affair with her 42 year old English Professor at a boarding school in Maine. As a teenager, young Vanessa is looking for validation and Strane feeds that need and makes her feel alive. He seduces her with his intellectual, poems, and even Lolita. He tells her that in her, he sees a bit of himself. Its the ingredients for a perfect storm and like a moth, Vanessa hurtles into the flame.The relationship carves and forever changes Vanessa, that even long after the affair is over, she can never truly let go of Strane. When Vanessa is 32 years old, other women come out to accuse Strane of sexually abusing them when they were teenage girls, Vanessa finds it difficult to believe their story, even though it bears similarities to that of her own. She thought that hers and Strane's bond was unique. He later tells her that the others were nothing special. That, unlike her, they meant nothing to him. That she was was his only true love. Talk about messed up. The dark snare that ties them is unbreakable, blinding Vanessa to Strane's predatory character. She sees him only as her soulmate. This novel will stay with you long after you're done reading it and will change the way you think.

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