Sorry. This book just wasn't for me. The plot sounded interesting but I struggled with the characters. It was poor choice my me to choose this book as it was not one of my usual genres..

The First Day of Spring is a really harrowing, haunting book which at first I felt too cowardly to read as the first chapter left me reeling. After three attempts at starting it again I finally found the strength to continue and from then on I was gripped. This is such a thought provoking story that has challenged a lot of my previously held beliefs and it will stay with me for a long time.

My thanks to Netgalley and the publishers for my copy.

To what extent can a childhood of neglect justify murder? Well, if this book is aimed at making the reader sympathetic to the perpetrator it has failed. Forgetting the fact that Chrissie, the protagonist, mercilessly murders a baby at the start of the novel, not only is she completely unremorseful but she goes on to behave abominably towards other people, including her best friend. The portrayal of Chrissie as an adult is more sympathetic but it's difficult to believe it's the same person. Some interesting insights into the mind of a killer but overall not a book I enjoyed.

I absolutely loved this. A really unique novel with a wonderful central character.. I would highly recommend this if you're looking for an intelligent novel that explores the long-term effect of a damaged childhood. Thank you so much to the publisher for the opportunity to read this.

Fifteen years after 8-year-old Chrissie killed a young boy, she is now a mother herself, struggling with the unfamiliarity of freedom, the pressures of motherhood, and being forced to reckon with her past.

4.5⭐️

This book wasn't exactly what I was expecting (I'm not sure would I class it as a thriller, personally), but honestly I enjoyed it all the more for what it turned out to be.
Because what it turned out to be was unlike anything I've ever read before. It was haunting and captivating and I read it entirely in one sitting.
The narrative voices of "Chrissie" and "Julia" were so distinct and yet recognisable as the same person, the writing of it was really well done. I am a sucker for character-driven narratives and this book epitomised this. The way Tucker is able to make you pivot between horror and profound sympathy for Chrissie was honestly impressive. Added to the fact she didn't make Julia (adult Chrissie) try to make excuses for her actions, but still acknowledge the awful circumstances that surrounded them-made for an entirely compelling main character and narrator.
I thoroughly enjoyed the examination of Chrissie's complicated relationship to freedom throughout her life. To see how the Home felt like a form of freedom to her, and the 'keepers' the closest thing she had felt to parental love. Then to see how this shaped her view of life after Haverleigh. Watching her grow away from this and confront her insecurities as a mother was so satisfying, I hadn't even realised how invested I'd gotten in her journey until we got that payoff-and it was so beautifully done.

If you're looking for a story that will really stay with you and make you examine so many aspects of childhood and parenthood, that masterfully weaves the grim and dark with the sincere and emotional, I highly recommend picking up this book.

Thank you NetGalley and Random House UK for my advanced review copy of this title, recieved in exchange for an honest review.

This is a heart wrenching story for many reasons.
The book begins with eight year old Chrissie strangling a little boy and enjoying the feeling.
She takes pleasure in watching his mother scream when she finds him dead and is desparate to tell everyone she did it.
She keeps it to herself for a while but it eventually comes out and Chrissie is sent away.
We then meet Chrissie who is now a Mum and is called Julia for her own protection.
Julia is so damaged by her childhood that she is scared of being a Mum but it’s clear she loves Molly very much.
A good read but it includes some very dark moments.
Thanks to Random House UK and NetGalley for the opportunity to read this book.

Really enjoyed this one, it was very dark and thought-provoking and an unsual subject matter very reminicent of Mary Bell.

I received a copy of the book from Netgalley to review. Below is the blurb:

"So that was all it took,' I thought. 'That was all it took for me to feel like I had all the power in the world. One morning, one moment, one yellow-haired boy. It wasn't so much after all.'
Chrissie knows how to steal sweets from the shop without getting caught, the best hiding place for hide-and-seek, the perfect wall for handstands.
Now she has a new secret. It gives her a fizzing, sherbet feeling in her belly. She doesn't get to feel power like this at home, where food is scarce and attention scarcer.
Fifteen years later, Julia is trying to mother her five-year-old daughter, Molly. She is always worried - about affording food and school shoes, about what the other mothers think of her. Most of all she worries that the social services are about to take Molly away
That's when the phone calls begin, which Julia is too afraid to answer, because it's clear the caller knows the truth about what happened all those years ago.
And it's time to face the truth: is forgiveness and redemption ever possible for someone who has killed?"

I felt both horrified while reading this book and empathy for the main character in this book. What a poor start to life Chrissie has. Loved the character of Linda. Really enjoyed this book and would recommend it, even though at times it can be quite disturbing.

I have never read anything quite as brutal and hard-hitting as Nancy Tucker's 'The First Day of Spring'. I left it a couple of days after finishing to write this review and I am still haunted by Chrissie's story. When the first page depicts an eight year old murdering a toddler, you know you are in for quite the journey. Who is this girl? What is her life like? And how could she possibly be driven to such a horrific action as this? The reader is immediately gripped and stays this way for the whole novel.

We view Chrissie's life as a child and adult in parallel. The distinction in writing style between eight year old Chrissie and Julia, her 25 year old, single mother self, makes the two personas distinct yet the juxtaposition between the two narratives drives the story. Chrissie is a child who is riding high on committing murder, using the joy to try and forget her hunger and the tricks she plays to get other households to provide for her basic needs. She is an incredibly angry and complex child - was she really born evil or created from the horrific circumstances of her home life? Alongside this, we have Julia, now mother to Molly and living with a new identity, who is still haunted by her past actions and wondering whether she can ever be forgiven.

Wow, this book is good. You would think it very hard to have sympathy for a child who is a murderer. However, the complex narrative Tucker weaves makes judgement of every character far from simple. Start reading for that disgustingly hard-hitting opening chapter and stay for the stark examination of abuse, neglect and redemption. 5 stars.

Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher who provided an ARC of this book in exchange for an honest review.

This book really messed with my head. I thought it was excellent, although the subject matter was horrific. Chrissie grows up in a hugely dysfunctional family, suffering constant hunger and neglect. Her mother, herself abused by her husband, ignores and starves her daughter. And that’s only part of the abuse Chrissie suffers. Unsurprisingly, perhaps, Chrissie develops bizarre beliefs and behaviours. As an eight-year-old, for example, she thinks that her largely absent Dad is dead, and that when he occasionally comes to visit her he has somehow come back to life, like Jesus. Unsurprisingly, always craving food and attention, Chrissie is an obnoxious bully who sets out to hurt and annoy everyone from the shopkeeper to her teacher. She has warped notions of love. And she’s a killer. And yet somehow her behaviour is understandable, maybe even inevitable.
Nancy Tucker’s language when telling the story through Chrissie’s eyes is spot on – she really gets into the mind of the young girl to describe how Chrissie feels, and how she experiences the world. We also hear from Chrissie as an adult, now living under another name, and a mother herself. Again, I had mixed feelings about the older Chrissie, but gradually she drew me in until I found myself really rooting for her. Never believing herself to be a good enough mother, the older Chrissie lives in constant fear of her daughter being taken away from her.
This is an absolutely gripping tale about childhood neglect, friendship, longing and fear, told in an exciting, unique voice. The author’s wonderful humour provides much-needed relief from the horror, in particular Chrissie’s observations and understanding of adult foibles, particularly those of the gossiping, interfering ‘mammies’.

This is a deeply disturbing but powerful novel about the effect of neglect and abuse on children. Your attention is grabbed from the first sentence where Chrissie, an eight year girl, describes how it felt to have just killed a toddler. Talk about a chilling and confronting start!

After such a horrifying start, the novel takes us into Chrissie’s life as she hugs her wicked secret to her while those around her hunt for the little boy’s killer. She is a child of negligent and distant parents; a father who is rarely there and a mother who is also a victim of generational poverty and neglect and seems to be away from home all day but never feeds or cares for Chrissie. With her thieving habits and wild ways, other parents discourage Chrissie’s friendship with their kids, but Chrissie is wilful and brash and has learn to bully and lie, cadging food where she can to survive. It’s hard not to feel sympathy for Chrissie, despite what she has done. Deep down she knows she is a ‘bad seed’ but like all children she just wants to be seen and loved.

Twenty years later Julia, a single mother is trying her best to raise her five year old daughter but with no role model of her own she is insecure and paranoid that her little girl will be taken from her. Confined for many years in a secure children’s home, she feels she doesn’t fit into normal society doesn’t know how to interact with the other mothers around her. All she wants is to raise her child in a safe and loving home and give her the childhood she never had.

Told with compassion and sensitivity, this is a very dark psychological drama and an amazing debut novel. The author writes the voice and thoughts of an eight year old child so convincingly that she feels like a real child, one you want to take away from her awful home before it’s too late (although of course it already is). Julia is also a convincing character, so conflicted by her past, yet to come to terms with what she did and learn to forgive herself before she can make a fresh start with her child. Overall this is a deeply thoughtful and moving novel that I suspect I will think about for some time.

Eight year old Cassie kills a little boy. Years later Cassie, now a mother herself, fears that her past is about to catch up with her.
Is Cassie a monster? As the story slips backwards and forwards between Cassie’s childhood and the present day, It certainly looks that way, but as more and more of Cassie’s life is revealed, one begins to see that how a killer can also be a victim.
I don’t like to give away plot details; I’ll say however that the story is well written; it drew me in and kept me wanting to know more. The characters were well written and came across as very real and believable..
Thanks to NetGalley for an advance copy in return for an honest review.

This starts with the greatest line “I killed a little boy today”. This is possibly the best book I have read so far this year (we are only at the end of January though!) this centres around one character, Chrissie aged 8 when she kills a little boy and herself years later, now named Julia.

Chrissie is a clever little girl who is desperate for attention, abused by her mother, mostly neglected but often not fed, never clean and deserted by her dad who she initially believes is dead until he returns from prison when she is told to call him uncle. No wonder the poor girl is so confused! This is a devastating story of how that abuse led Chrissy to do the unthinkable and how it later affects her life and gives her constant fear that her own child will be take away at any moment.

The characters are well developed. Chrissy is particularly well written and my heart breaks for her multiple times, despite her want to murder many people and be so disruptive. She often just thinks of herself as a ‘bad seed’ which I think is how she wants to be seen rather than feeling like a monster. Chrissy is very direct and can be very funny with her bluntness, but she is often also very close to the mark, definitely not a stupid girl by any means.

As Julia you can see how much she loves her daughter Molly, she would do anything for her but doubts her abilities as a mother all the time. Moly is Julia’s opportunity for survival and for regrowth. Her best friend, Linda, whom she has known since she was a small child, is a brilliant friend. She is sympathetic and caring and loves both Chrissy, Julia and Molly, she has a heart of gold and would make a best friend to anyone.

This is a heartbreaking, compelling read that I just couldn’t put down. There is plenty of suspense, it’s dark and you don’t know what is going to happen next. The book is so well written it’s seamless going between Chrissy and Julia’s chapters.

This is a brilliant book; you don’t want to miss it!

Read through netgalley
Very loosely based on the story of Mary Bell, 8 year old Chrissie commits a terrible crime. The story itself is incredibly difficult to read but portrayed perfectly the experience of Chrissie as a child experiencing chronic neglect and emotional abuse. Despite Chrissie committing such an awful crime, I felt sorry for her which is a comment on how wonderfully talented the author is. Would recommend.

I was sent an email about this book based on other books I’d reviewed. It was suggested it would be one i’d enjoy. They weren’t wrong!

It’s a very different thriller, the storyline is like nothing I’ve read before. It starts off with Chrissie as a child saying she had killed someone. So instantly I was drawn in!

The story goes back and forth to past and present, Chrissie as a child and Chrissie as an adult (under a new name). Even though you know she has done something terrible, you can’t help but route for her! She’s a lonely, neglected child. Even when she’s an adult, you like her. It’s very clever how the author has done that.

The story itself was great, the writing style
was enjoyable and the whole time the story kept my attention.

Overall an enjoyable read. Thank you NetGalley for the opportunity to read :)

Loved the beginning but definitively not a mystery or a thriller and it then went downhill.
Eight year old Chrissie comes from an abusive home and kills a young boy from her street and loves the power it gave her.
The story is told when she grows up and has a child of her own.
The story just didn`t flow for me, it was confusing, the characters were very annoying just got to 43% after trying to read a few times but gave up.
Thanks to Netgalley for the ARC in exchange for my honest review.

An unusual and at times uncomfortable tale of a young girl brought up in difficult circumstances. This affects how she sees the world and how she feels about people. I found the storyline compelling but maybe it’s not for the faint hearted

TW child death, child neglect

I went into this book blind as it was recommended to me by a friend.

The ‘story’ is told in a split timeline where we hear the narrative of Chrissie as an eight year old child; and as Julia as an adult, after she’s reassigned another identity.

Although I did feel sorry for Chrissie she was obviously neglected and the hunger and neglect really distorted her views on things. An eight year old doesn’t wee on another persons bed just because their anger and hunger fizzes up inside them. She was clearly disturbed.

Her mother (if you can even call her that) told her on multiple occasions when her dad left that he was dead, so no wonder Chrissie had no idea about death when her ‘Da’ came back from the dead time and time again.

She suffered child neglect at the hands of her mother, who was suffering from some kind of mental breakdown, drinking, sleeping and ignoring her daughter. Who doesn’t feed their kids?

As an adult, Julia is trying to care for her daughter Molly, so much so that they life a regimented life so that her daughter has structure and routine.

We never do find out why Chrissie did what she did at such a young age; but reading between the lines she should have had more help than she did due to her circumstances rather than being locked away.

A really interesting read; but will be difficult in parts for some.

A haunting read which will remain with me for some time to come.
Chrissie is a neglected young girl , no love from her parents , no food to eat and left in dirty clothes , and she is also a killer.
The story it told through the eyes of the young eight year old Chrissie , and the older Chrissie now called Julia and it really is heart rending.
This book is expertly written covering themes that are emotive , disturbing and thought provoking .
An excellent soul absorbing read.
Thanks to NetGalley and Random House UK.

Along with the gripping storyline, the author has drawn such a vivid and chilling characterization of Chrissie, that she actually feels real, and she’s certainly not a character I will forget in a hurry, and this, Ms Tucker, is the highest compliment I can pay you. A powerful, distressing, haunting, but ultimately brilliant read, and so sensitively handled.