This was a heavy, intense read. The first part focuses on Pesuyama's experiences as a manga assistant, particularly the relentless sexual harassment that they faced from the manga's creator, X. That part was extremely hard to read, and the stress of that situation is powerfully conveyed through the art; I was on edge the entire time. The lasting psychological and physical effects from this traumatic work environment continue to make life difficult for Pesuyama, and they struggle to find healing and closure. The narrative flows from past adult trauma to childhood experiences, focusing on the author's growing awareness of their gender identity and their lack of belonging. Even as a child, there are moments of early sexual harassment, incidents that were excused as "boys being boys." The conflict the author feels about their body and gender identity is explored, especially as they feel like they are targeted for harassment for having been born in a "girl's body." In a meandering, but structured way, this manga highlights key moments of trauma, friendship, self-discovery, resistance, and the path that led them to sharing their story. Some of my favorite parts are Pesuyama's conversations with their editor as they work together on the manga, discuss the #metoo movement, talk about gender identity, and consult with a lawyer about the possibility of suing X. There are some queer friends who are mentioned, and I hope they show up more in volume 2!

3.5 stars 🌟

The fact that social norms allowed and still allow for sexual harassment to happen and some people never defend victims is truly upsetting. Really brave to allow us to see their experiences and also show us their journey with gender.

Felt the story structure could have been different, but it's their story, so I understand.