A well-crafted story with plenty to appreciate. The pacing, characters, and plot twists kept me interested throughout. I'm looking forward to seeing how readers respond once it's released!

Bad Habit is heartbreaking, tender and also fascinating about Spain in the early years post-Franco. Alana S. Portero vividly creates the world of a working class neighbourhood on the edge of Madrid with all its kindness, brutality, tolerance and prejudice. Álex, the central character knows who she is from a young age, but the forces preventing her from coming out as a trans woman are strong. Each step forward is countered by a shove backwards. The supporting cast of characters who inspire her as the years go on are wonderful. Despite bleak moments and an unflinching look at hatred, Bad Habit is ultimately hopeful and really beautiful.

This is an absolutely beautifully written coming of age narrative of a trans-woman struggling to reconcile her gender identity with the society around her. The cast of characters are incredibly vibrant and the reader is immersed in the world, joys and struggles of the protagonist. I can only highly recommend this important and powerful novel.

Bad Habit by Alana S. Portero, translated by Mara Faye Lethem, is a trans fairytale, a rare piece of urban folklore, an undiscovered ancient myth, a lucid dream and tragic nightmare all rolled into one.

We follow an unnamed trans woman as she grows up, discovers herself and tries to find her place in a hyper masculine community in Madrid. She loves and lusts, is subject to cruelty and violence and most importantly, discovers guardian angels in the form of her local trans elders.

This is a story of suffering and suppression. Difficult to read at times, but all the more important for the light it sheds on the struggles of trans women.

Only small slithers of hope are offered, but when they come they are heartening and deeply wholesome. Portero shows us the tenderness and love shared by the women in the trans community, as they trade kind words and paint their faces for another day of war.

A very tender trans coming of age story. It is written like a memoir which was a really effective method of story telling. There is so much pain, confusion and anguish in the book that it hurt sometimes to read but the story is so special, it is a really valuable read.

Bad Habit immerses readers in the poignant journey of a girl trapped in a boy's body, navigating the gritty realities of working-class Madrid. Alana S. Portero captures the protagonist's struggle for self-understanding with a poetic and mythic touch, set against the backdrop of the city's heroin epidemic in the 1980s and the vibrant, chaotic nightlife of the 1990s.

In a blue-collar neighborhood ironically named after a saint, the protagonist feels out of place, yet finds solace and identity in Madrid’s downtown party scene, populated by junkies, pop stars, and other marginalized figures. The novel explores her quest for community and self-discovery amidst the violence and danger that come with each choice. With its blend of lyrical prose and gritty realism, Bad Habit offers a powerful and evocative portrayal of coming-of-age against a tumultuous urban backdrop.

Probably one of the most beautiful books I have read this year. I need everyone to read this book, its magical, wonderful, heartbreaking, and oh so memorable.

A gut-punch of a book. Poetic and raw exploration of working-class families, survival, gender, sisterhood, chosen families. All against the backdrop of 90s Madrid. A visceral read. A huge highlight of the year for me so far. I will watch out for whatever Alana S. Portero writes next. Thank you NetGalley for the ARC! 💘

This is a story of a young trans woman growing up in a working class suburb. It’s coming of age, evocative and poignant. The book is so heartbreaking and devastating. I deeply felt for the main character and all those women.

Set in downtown Madrid. Author takes us back in 80s and 90s. A young girl was growing up but she had so many questions. She witnessed some things and some terrible things happened with her. Author has portrayed lives of a transgender people and how it is for them growing up, realising the truth and accepting it along with self realisation. While the narrative kept me engaged. I liked the observations of the main character and how she just did not believe what she heard but tried to see everything from her own perspective. Author has also splattered light upon gender and class. I like the main character’s interest in mythology, how they related their life with it and strived to become powerful.

Thanks to the Publisher and Author

A brilliantly written and devastating book about transness and the heroin epidemic in the poorest neighbourhoods of Madrid. This novel is political and brutal, not shying away from the root causes of the epidemic and how it affects the most impoverished, keeping poor neighbourhoods poor through planned action. But it is also tender, bringing the characters in these neighbourhoods to life and treating them with the respect that they are not given by the outside world. A brilliant expose on the intersection of transness and poverty with a truly human heart.

I thought this book was a really great queer novel which explores the underbelly of Madrid and the variety of people which inhabit the city. It looks at the negative things which plague a lot of the people but also the main characters experience as a trans women and how she finds her way in this world.

My thanks to the publisher and Netgalley for my free digital ARC of Bad Habit by Alana S. Portero, translated from the Spanish by Mara Faye Lethem. I bloody loved this book, it was messy and devastating and beautiful and hopeful. It embodies the powerful bonds forged between women, and trans women in particular. Álex, the main character, recounts her life and the women who have helped shaped it. Hers is not an easy life, growing up a trans girl in a working class neighbourhood which both scorns and reveres its women. The theme of neighbourliness is not one I come across often in fiction, which I definitely think is reflective of how isolated we are now as a society. But the women who live in close proximity to Álex, both trans and cis, look out for one another, doing the best they can amid violence inflicted by men. A flawless translation, a love letter to solidarity, just gorgeous.

This is such a painfully tender story of a trans woman's coming of age and moving through the world that doesn't want to accept her for who she is.

Whilst the book is filled with pain, violence, anguish and longing it's also overflowing with love from family and the love and support of the different women she meets in her life, who each teach her something about being herself, resilience, beauty and bravery. The trans solidarity all throughout the book gives strong rays of hope through the darkness and made life worth living for our main character.

This book rings so true and reads as if it were a real memoir telling the real and authentic story of how it can be to grow up and survive as a trans person in a working class neighbourhood and a city of little acceptance, but still being surrounded by so much love by those few special and important people we encounter in our lives.

This book was beautiful, well written and translated, extremely descriptive and funny but above all, devastatingly honest.

Bad Habit is a coming of age story set in a working class district of Madrid. Starting from the 1980’s and moving onwards, this memoir-like story explores the life of a trans girl/woman as she grows up. Although having discovered the likes of friends, role models, allies, and a community of support along the way, life for this protagonist is difficult, dangerous and one filled with fear and terror and being wholly misunderstood.

After seeing so many rave reviews from several other book bloggers, I was so excited to read this, and for the most part, this book really lives up to its hype. It’s a very poignant story and a very powerful one too. It lyrical, it’s poetic, it’s incredibly beautiful to read, and incredibly moving aswell <3 I love that it’s written like a memoir because it gives it such a fresh and unique voice, and I ADORED the cast of characters we were introduced to, in particular Margarita.

That being said, there were times when I was reading this that I felt like something was missing? Maybe it’s because I expected this to be a stand out 5⭐️ read, given that I’d seen so many other high reviews, or maybe because I felt quite distant from the story due to the short, quick chapters that never quite delve into detail as much as you want to.
As I said above, this is a very lyrical and poetic novel, and whilst I can appreciate that (and often enjoy that type of writing) this was bordering on being a teeny bit too much for my liking.

This is still such a beautiful novel and i highly recommend adding to your TBR's!

Alana S. Portero's "Bad Habit" is an empathetic and extremely touching look at the unnamed heroine's life as a transgender woman. The character's life is so vivid and so compassionately told that we only want the best for her. Portero creates a vivid portrait of her Madrid neighbourhood and how she must hide her true self in order to function in this world as a teenager and young adult. Potero's novel has the touch of Pedro Almodóvar's early anarchic films, and his fictional stories about Patty Diphusa. Admirers of his work will find a kindred spirit in Alana S. Portero.

Portero's storytelling and her talent for writing a large supporting cast of characters gives the novel its heft. I was particularly struck by her portrait of Margarita and how Rocío Dúrcal's La Gata Bajo La Lluvia plays such an important role in Margarita's story. In Bad Habit, there's also a strong undercurrent of sisterhood and wanting to connect to other women. It's also about resilience under the lasting effects of Franco's reign. If there's a drawback to this slim novel, it's that I wanted more. I wanted to live in this world a lot longer.

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Bad Habit by Alana S Portero, translated by Mara Faye allergen
Publishing Date: 23rd May

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️/5

📝 - Anchored by the voice of its sweet and defiant narrator, Bad Habit casts a trans woman’s trying youth as a heartfelt odyssey. Raised in an animated yet impoverished blue-collar neighborhood, Alana S. Portero’s protagonist struggles to find her place. As the city around her changes–the heroin epidemic that ravages Madrid through the ‘80s and ‘90s, rallying calls of worker solidarity and the pulsing beat of the city’s night scene– she becomes increasingly detached from the world and, most crucially, herself. Her relationships along the way shape her evolution, from the local trans woman she’s know her whole life, to her first love.

💭 - In short, I loved it. Thoroughly deserving of a 5-star rating, Portero’s writing is sublime. Some of the book even reads as if it were a memoir, the emotion is so raw and unflinching, and then paired with some beautiful, lyrical prose. Moments of the story are of course heartbreaking, but the focus on the relationships that build us up, the family that we may choose outside of where we were born, and the impact each person can have on our lives, bring so much hope and beauty. I really did not want this one to end.
A potential contender for my favourite of the year so far…
Get your hands on this one as soon as you can.
Thank you @netgalley and @4thestatebooks for the e-ARC!

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This is a gorgeous exploration of life. A true coming of age story that yearns to be read. I really enjoyed parts of it, but others just felt rushed. You can’t take away from this book however that you’ll be gripped by the story and the voice.

4,5

Raw and tender at the same time, this novel/memoir tells the story of growing up queer in a working class district in 1980s Madrid. It grew on me and then it touched me and I couldn't put it away.

Alana tells her story through the big-hearted women that she looked up to and that guided and taught her on her extremely hard journey as a trans woman.

It is one of those novels/memoirs that really manages to transmit all the doubts, feelings, inevitabilities and injustices. In that sense it reminded me of Edouard Louis.

Some reviewers say this should be mandatory reading and I would definitely support that - an important book!

Many thanks to the publisher and to Netgalley for the ARC.

Described as a staggering coming-of-age novel, deeply rooted in the class struggles of a trans woman growing up in Madrid in the last decades of the twentieth century, I went into this novel with high expectations - which were not only met, but far surpassed.

This novel is just heartrending. A lyrical, emotive fever dream, that whisks you to the setting and immerses you fully in the heartbreak of the era. Perfect for fans of Jennifer Clement.