I hate to say it, but I'm rooting for the villain. Anthony is not at all a saint or a good person, not even a grey character. He is a raging red flag, but him saying, that he would start a war if something happens to the main character Ruying had me giggling. He still very much used his power over Ruying to make her work with him and black mailed her. But with just one chapter the author makes it very hard to just hate him...

But in all seriousness, Ruying, the main character is a girl born in a prestigious family, after the invasion of Rome and the succumbing of Pangu her homeland she does everything it takes to protect her family. Even if that means becoming a traitor in the eyes of her loved ones. My heart broke for her several times.

I'm not super thrilled about the mystical magic and modern science mix, but that is just a personal preference. However it gives this story a bit of a scifie edge, which I thing a lot of people will like. The writing is great and the world building is so lovely. The characters are very complex and this book shows very well that in war there isn't really a good and a bad side. Everyone does things for the cause they believe in and those things often mean sacrifice on the back of the innocent.

I'm looking forward to the second volume.

I found it a little difficult to get into in the beginning, but soon, I was hooked on the story. I needed to know what happened next.
Rome's world is dying due to what comes across as climate change because of pollution, etc. And so they have infiltrated Ruying's world and have made a lot of people compliant through the use of a drug called opian (much like the British did with China).
Ruying's world has magic, and Rome's has science.
With how this one ended, I'm very much looking forward to the next book. To see how Ruying progresses as a character.

Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for providing me with this eArc.

I debated on if I was going to leave a review for this. On one hand, the author's writing itself was really easy to read and the storytelling was beautiful and I couldn't put it down. On the other hand, I do see why there is so much controversy around this book and the topics of a romance between a coloniser and someone that has been colonised. I could get past a character that was just born into and didn't really have any say but, I'm sorry - a romantic relationship with someone who tortured you?? Baffled. I am baffled but, also, I think I have to read the next one. What has this author done to me?

Unfortunately, I don't think this was for me. I just couldn't get into it and the romance felt off for me, so I ended up DNFing this one.

Thank you NetGalley, Penguin Random House UK Children's and the author for this eARC.

*2.5 Stars*

This didn't really work for me. I couldn't understand the main character... not her decisions, not her feelings, not her thoughts, none of it... I saw her fall for this man and I was like?????
I just didn't understand how she changed so quickly, how she had convictions one second and then poof nothing.
I just couldn't get into it. It didn't make sense to me and the whole thing infuriated me in the worse way. I guess there's more to the story than this and it does turn around at some point but it had truly lost me by then...
So yeah, this didn't work for me...

I liked the world building but not interested in the romance.
I unfortunately, DNF'ed this book 20%

How wonderful to see another new author coming through with such a superb first book? A story full of adventure, romance, tension and magic - my students are going to adore this!

Molly Chang’s *To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods* is a captivating addition to the young adult fantasy genre that intricately weaves elements of sci-fi, historical resonance, and rich character development. Set in a world reminiscent of a futuristic Roman empire, it follows the journey of Ruying, a young woman with the unique and dangerous power of death, who must navigate a landscape rife with moral complexity, betrayal, and the weight of colonial rule.

At the heart of the narrative is Ruying, a character whose arc embodies the struggle between personal desires and the heavy burdens of her circumstances. Chang presents Ruying as a multifaceted individual, torn between her loyalty to her family and the oppressive demands of a Roman prince. Her character evokes comparisons to Nezha from *The Poppy War*, as both characters grapple with the consequences of their choices in a morally ambiguous world. Ruying’s complacency in accepting her role under colonial domination adds layers to her character, making her transformation both compelling and unsettling. Chang deftly explores Ruying's internal conflicts, illustrating how power and vulnerability coexist in her quest for survival.

Antony, the second prince of Rome, serves as a dark counterpart to Ruying. His character is crafted with intricate layers, embodying the archetype of the morally gray love interest. Unlike traditional romantic leads, Antony’s motivations are shrouded in ambiguity, leading to a dynamic that is both enticing and troubling. The relationship between Ruying and Antony serves as a focal point for examining themes of manipulation, power, and emotional complexity. Their bond, rooted in trauma and a shared understanding of their circumstances, prompts readers to question the nature of love in the context of power dynamics.

The book delves into significant themes, particularly the exploration of power dynamics and colonialism. Chang's portrayal of a hyper-advanced Roman empire juxtaposed against Ruying’s vibrant, magical world resonates deeply with contemporary discussions about colonial histories and their lasting impacts. While some critiques have noted similarities to other narratives in the genre, Chang's nuanced portrayal of these themes invites readers to reflect on the nature of heroism and villainy. By avoiding clear-cut distinctions between good and evil, she compels readers to engage with the moral complexities inherent in colonization and resistance.

Chang's worldbuilding is commendable, rich with cultural references and an intricate magical system that enhances the story's depth. The pacing, while initially slow and filled with exposition, gradually evolves into a well-rounded narrative that seamlessly introduces the reader to the conflicts at play. The author’s ability to blend historical contexts with fantastical elements provides a textured backdrop for Ruying’s journey, making the stakes feel both urgent and relatable.

The slow-burn romance between Ruying and Antony stands out as one of the book's highlights. It is not merely a romantic subplot; rather, it serves as a vehicle for exploring deeper themes of trauma, loyalty, and moral ambiguity. The tension in their relationship is palpable, making it a gripping aspect of the story that keeps readers engaged. Chang’s careful crafting of this relationship invites readers to consider the psychological implications of love forged in the crucible of adversity.

*To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods* is a remarkable debut that showcases Molly Chang's potential as a significant voice in the fantasy genre. With its complex characters, rich thematic explorations, and a world that is both familiar and refreshing, this book is poised to resonate with readers who appreciate stories that challenge traditional narratives. While some elements may echo familiar tropes, Chang's unique perspective and commitment to nuanced storytelling offer a fresh take that will keep readers eagerly anticipating the next installment. For those who crave a dark, thought-provoking romance embedded in a richly imagined world, this book is not to be missed.

In conclusion, *To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods* is a masterful exploration of power, love, and the moral ambiguities of human relationships set against a vividly constructed backdrop. It invites readers to gaze upon its wicked gods, reflecting on the complexity of their own beliefs and emotions long after the last page is turned.

If there's one thing I love to read about it's complex characters and grey morals that are ACTUALLY grey and man does this book deliver! I was hooked and I loved the main character

3 ⭐️⭐️⭐️

Thank you so much to Penguin Randomhouse and NetGalley for an e-arc of this book.

This was a 2 star for me until the second half of the book where things picked up and became interesting. The first half of the book was not engaging for me.

It wasn’t until the second half the world building developed properly (something that is better to have at the start and then continue throughout a book). Similar issues with characterisation.

I love reading about complex characters. Characters who have their worldview challenged and question at each stage whether they truly are doing the right thing. Ruying, our female protagonist, was an interesting character to read about. I truly connected with the conflict she felt throughout the story.

I also don't read a lot of sci-fi, but the blend of sci-fi and fantasy, science, magic and mythology was beautifully done. The exploration of politics into colonialism was interesting and I'm intrigued to how things will explored throughout the remaining books.

The only note I have is in regards to some of the dark themes in this book. While there is barely any romance in this book I would describe the relationship between the two main characters in this book as quite manipulative and abusive, so just be wary when going in this.

Otherwise thank you to net galley and the publisher's for letting me read an early copy of this book.

To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods by Molly X. Chang is an extraordinary tale. I actually don't need to say any more then that, it's BRILLIANT. But, I will... Obviously 🫶🏻

Chang masterfully blends mythology, dark fantasy, and unbelievable character development. From the very first page, Chang's vivid and graphic narrative pulls readers into a world where gods walk among mortals and the lines between good and evil blur.

The story centers on Yang, whose journey is both compelling and transformative. Chang excels at creating a character whose struggles and triumphs resonate with the reader. The characters are well-crafted, providing a perfect balance of internal conflict and external challenges, making Yangs growth authentic and engaging.

Chang's world-building is exceptional, rich with detail and imbued with a sense of wonder and danger. The mythology feels both fresh and timeless, a testament to Chang. It's absolutely phenomenal.

The plot is woven full of unexpected twists and turns that keep the reader on edge. Chang's pacing is impeccable, maintaining a steady rhythm that enhances the tension and excitement without ever feeling rushed.

To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods is a triumph of storytelling, offering a richly immersive experience that is both thrilling and emotionally vibrant. Chang has crafted a masterpiece that stands out in the fantasy genre, making it a must-read for fans of mythological and dark fantasy. Highly recommended.

"To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods" by Molly X. Chang is a mesmerizing journey into a world where mythology and reality intertwine. The novel follows Lian, a determined protagonist, as she navigates a landscape filled with ancient deities and dark secrets. Chang's writing is vivid and lyrical, creating a rich tapestry of intrigue and emotion. The plot is well-crafted, with twists that keep readers on the edge of their seats. Chang excels in character development, making each figure memorable and complex. "To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods" is a spellbinding read that blends fantasy and suspense, leaving a lasting impression.

I loved this one. I thought the premise of having power over death was brilliant and I really enjoyed the exploration of science and technology trying to overcome the power of the magical world and the dynamic this creates between the two throughout the book.

Ruying is my favourite kind of fantasy character: feisty, determined and willing to do anything to protect the people she cares about. I enjoyed seeing her work through the conflict that her desire to protect her family when she is faced with the realisation that things are not what she thought and the things she learns.

A brilliant read which I will definitely be recommending!

3.5/4 ⭐

The book repeatedly made me question the protagonists, which I found very exciting. I like it when a story doesn’t prescribe pre-made emotions.

The world in the book immediately captivated me. Er-Lang, a magical realm occupied by Rome, stands in stark contrast to Rome, which acts ruthlessly with progress and science. I found this juxtaposition very well done, even if it was sometimes very brutal.

Although the book is mainly classified as fantasy, I would describe it more as a mix of fantasy and sci-fi. This is just my opinion, and I might be wrong.

The author's writing style is interesting and has a lot of potential. However, it’s evident that this is her first work, as there are some repetitions. These were somewhat annoying but not critical.

The FMC starts off strong and multi-faceted. Her inner conflicts, anger, and doubts are very well portrayed. As the story progresses, she sometimes comes across as naive, which detracts a bit from her initial strength, but is also understandable. Nevertheless, she remains relatable and comprehensible until the end.

The MMC is also well-developed and very present, even though he doesn’t always make positive decisions.

The world-building is solid, but I would have liked more details and explanations. Is the book set on our Earth or somewhere else? In what time period does it take place, or are there two different ones? Unfortunately, this remains very unclear. At some points, I felt a bit left alone.

The end of the book held many surprises and definitely piqued my interest in the second volume.

Overall, I was pleasantly surprised.

It is a promising debut with interesting characters and a fascinating world, even though there is room for improvement in some areas.

There is no romance in this book. I don't know why it's tagged as a romance but it most certainly is not.

I don't have a problem with that though. I didn't come to this book for romance. I wanted to read about a protagonist with death magic, trying to stem the tides of war and that's what I got.

I would recommend this book to people who like Ursula K. Le Guin, that's what this book reads like. Because there's some sci-fi, some fantasy, a little bit of action and world building but it's VERY introspective and heavy on exploring themes. I think if you love The Left Hand of Darkness, you'll love To Gaze Upon Wicked Gods. Although this book is WAY faster paced than The Left Hand of Darkness, and that's a good thing.

The prose is very lovely. In fact, the narration is so good that sometimes the dialog just fell flat by comparison.

This also read like a psychological thriller to me because the manipulation was A LOT. When she started to catch feelings for the prince, I was like "girl, run!" With the prince's every word, it feels like he's trying to trap her in an abusive relationship. I hate it and I hate him.

My main criticism is that there aren't trigger warnings for this book. There's violence, drug abuse, child abuse, child death, medical trauma, needles, and while there's no romantic relationship between Ruying and Antony, it FEELS like an abusive relationship. So anyone who could be triggered by reading about abusive relationships should also steer clear.

Otherwise, I really enjoyed this book and I look forward to reading the rest of the series.

Thanks to Netgalley and the publisher for providing me with this ARC!

Wow what an absolute pleasure it was to get a copy of this book in advance! I loved every second of my read through! Thank you NetGalley and the publishers for a copy of this book.

This book sounded really interesting amd the cover is so beautiful unfortunately I just didn’t enjoy it at all. I couldn’t get behind the romance and I struggled to get through the book.

Unfortunately I didn't like this book as much as I though I would. There was a lot of repetitive talk about the choice the main character made, if it's right, or wrong, should she change her mind....which, I mean I get the whole thing is about morally grey decisions, but it got to be a lot!
And I somehow didn't feel the connection between the two main characters, it felt too flat.
It's too bad but I ont think I will keep reading this serie.

*Thanks to NetGalley and Penguin Random House UK Children's for access to the ebook against an honest review.*

This is a fantastic book with compelling characters and riveting storylines! I loved the worldbuilding and thought Ruying made a great protagonist. I loved seeing her relationship with Antony develop, and the twists and turns along the way were amazing. The magic system in the book really added to it and I couldn’t put the book down! I would definitely recommend this book!