Loser of the Year is an ice queen, enemies to lovers romance set in a Catholic girls school. Mattie has just taken a job there, despite the fact that she is both queer and Jewish. Having just gotten a divorce and moved back home with her parents, her job as a drama teacher is as close to her disappointing acting career as she can get. She meets Jillian, a seemingly self-absorbed ice queen, ex USWNT soccer player and the schools soccer coach. The two don't exactly hit it off, though their animosity wanes as they spend more time together working on the school musical.

There is a lot going on in this book which gives it a good amount of depth - the conflict of being a queer person in a traditional values Catholic school, dealing with divorce and being afraid to pursue your dreams, being honest with the kids you are teaching even if it could cost you your job and how to be brave despite it being scary. We only get to see Mattie's point of view, but she has many musings on where Jillian is coming from that help us get into her mind as well. The characters are thoughtful, and their interactions with others are all meaningful. It's a more realistic story than many romances and while it does have a HEA, it's not all sunshine and easy roses like so many other ones. Life isn't always easy to navigate and this book shows that, but also what can happen when you are true to yourself. It's a great book that I definitely recommend.

I received an ARC in exchange for an honest review.

I can’t believe that this is Byrd’s debut novel. The writing is gorgeous, the dialogue is snappy, the characters are oh-so flawed and real and relatable, and the pacing was great. If you like sapphic fiction, you should pick this up immediately (well, July 17) and join the legions of arc readers who are already falling all over ourselves to give praise to this newcomer to our hallowed author circles.

Mattie has returned home after a divorce and not getting any big acting breaks, tail between her legs, feeling totally defeated. Her mom helped score her a theater teaching gig at a local Catholic high school, which will at least allow her to do something with her waking hours and save some money while she inhabits her childhood room. The fact that she is Jewish shouldn’t matter, right? And that morality clause that she skimmed over in the contract couldn’t possibly mean she can’t be out, right?

Jillian is a narcissistic coach of the winningest women’s high school soccer team in PA - 13 years and counting. When we first meet her, she is giving a press conference, saying things like “And it’s all thanks to yours truly: the best girls’ soccer coach in the history of this mediocre state.” To me, she’s reminiscent of Jane Lynch’s Sue Sylvester on Glee, which I am here for. Jillian is both respected and hated and doesn’t need anyone for anything. She rules the school and is despised for it, but her armor is as thick as igloo walls and nothing bothers her. Except, it seems, Mattie. Mattie who isn’t afraid of her, Mattie who stands up to her, Mattie who’s gaydar pings immediately and actually talks about it with her. Things are not going as usual this year, that’s for sure.

I want to give nothing away because the ride is delightful and everyone should get to enjoy it as much as I did. But I will say that these women are deep character studies, both overcoming their own experiences, learning about themselves as they get to know each other, and confronting their deepest fears all while inspiring their young charges that they both care about so much.

And the writing is fantastic - I highlighted so many one liners that made me laugh out loud....let me offer you a brief sampling of some of my favorites:
“May she have hemorrhoids that weep more often than an unhappy toddler”
“But the outcome seemed inevitable, like death, taxes, or homophobic politicians getting caught on gay-dating apps”
“How many times do I have to say this? Apologies are like corporate vision statements: utterly useless.”

Do yourself a favor and go get this book!
Thank you to NetGally and Ylva Publishing for an arc in exchange for an honest review.

would like to thank netgalley and the publisher for letting me read this awesome book

today is the first day of matties new job.... shes going to be a teacher and teach theatre and performing arts but first she has to get through another teachers speech about how well she had been at her job to get the soccer team as far as they could go... and boy was this speech all about her and not about the teams performance....

jillian reed was that coach she was good at her job but she was also not liked by many people

mattie and jillian were a clash of personalities both not willing to give an inch for their classes but both had the girls best interest at heart

so what if mattie found it a challenge to step up to jillian and not give an inch like the other teachers did...
was that really a smile quirking on jillians face...nope matties must have been mistaken....

but when the new musical was announced and both mattie and jillian found themselves working to put it together was there going to be a clash of personalities

man this book covered so much... bullying. homophobic content to name but a few but it was how the characters were brought out and their personalities that made you love them.... could not put this book down... it was gripping and you were routing for them all....

what a book.... will be keeping an eye out for more from this author

I had absolutely no idea what to expect with this book. I knew it was a debut and I have to say it blew me away! For a debut novel, this is world class! I look forward to everything else to come from Carrie Byrd!

It's an enemies to lovers, opposites attract and a "kind of ice queen" romance.
It's been discussed in other reviews, but "Jillian Reed" was a challange for me!
I never thought I could hate a main character so much until halfway through a book and then respect her immensely by the end of it!
She is arrogant, confident, self-absorbed, seemingly made of Teflon and extremely serious and cynical.
That's what she shows everyone, including Mattie, her new colleague.

But then there is a depth to her, i din't recognize for a long time.
Neither does Mattie. Jillian is very dedicated to her job as a coach and is full of hidden feelings and insecurities.

Mattie, on the other hand, is an absolute sweetheart from the first second and only sees in her what Jillian wants her to see.
A tyrant, that'll make her already sad life, a living hell!

The twists and turns in this book completely surprised me! That's what makes this book so brilliant!
Plus, it's extremely hot, funny, and full of cute and sometimes very annoying characters.
I can't and don't want to say anything more about it. Don't want ot spoil anything!
You have to read it!

Very heartfelt!

Mattie finds herself back in her hometown, teaching at a religious school, alongside Jillian Reed. Immediately the two of them clash, but when they are forced to work together, Mattie discovers a side to Jillian that leaves her feeling attracted, things get really complicated.

Such a great story that dealt with sensitive subjects and difficult situations really well, and shone a light on being your true self as love will prevail over attitudes and standards that have devastating consequences to people’s well being. I loved how Carrie covered so much, from Mattie and Jillian recognising an alliance in one another but creating their own tension, to them accepting fates and supporting each other even when it’d mean making sacrifices.

Mattie and Jillian's relationship brewed really quickly but was born from a firey passion both of them were expert at concealing when they really had to. Not only did they face obstacles in their work and community but also internally and personally. That really made their whole relationship dramatic but in the best way. As soon as they started working together, their chemistry was off the charts but in everything they did, it was their students and the impact any of their actions had on them that came first. At times, especially for Mattie, that was heartbreaking.

Really enjoyed the story. It’s a romance with a difference, and some lovely surprises.

Mattie was an easily loveable character, an out and proud agnostic with Jewish background, she was a sweet and kind-hearted woman who was down on her luck lately but refused to back down from life challenges. I especially touched and loved that she displayed incredible patience and acceptance with her queer students, something I wished I had growing up but I digressed. Jillian on the other hand was not an easily likeable character, she was confident, intense, self-centered and to quote Mattie "Maybe the most arrogant person she'd ever seen", but as the story progressed, we began to understand behind her tough exterior hides a vulnerable woman who feels the need to hides her sexuality, which was understandable, given her Catholic's upbringing.

This is an incredibly well written debut with well-crafted characters development. The book touched on sensitive topics like religion, complicated dynamics between queer members and their family. The chemistry between the two mains are off the chart! This writer is definitely one of my instant read from now on, can't wait to see what she writes next.

Thank you so much to NetGalley and Ylva Publishing for the arc.

Religion and sexuality. Life can be a challenge on its own. When you bring Christianity and sexuality into the fold, life can be even more of a challenge. The question in my opinion is; can they coexist. My answer is, of course! Jillian Reed, former soccer player, current successful high school soccer coach. Coach Reed is focused to the max. Mattie Belman, aspiring actress with a future that is not looking very promising. She heads to her family home to regroup and lands a position teaching theater at the local Catholic high school. In this opposites attract story, Jillian and Mattie find themselves working together and sparks begin to fly. The chemistry is fantastic. Jillian's personality is quite something. I enjoyed the reminder that teachers are extremely important in the lives of their students.

I was shocked to find out this was a debut novel. It was a well paced, humorous romance. I found Mattie and Jillian to be an odd couple but that is what made them work. The side characters really really shined in this book as well. The one liners, the odd jokes and the the cockiness. Great debut!


Thanks to NetGalley and Ylva Publishing for the arc in exchange for my honest review.

Loser of the Year by Carrie Byrd is a rivals to lovers, opposites attract, fire queen, contemporary romance, set in the world of academia. 
 
Mattie Balman has returned to her hometown, leaving her ex-wife and flaying acting career behind. She’s not thrilled with the prospect of starting a new job, teaching theatre at the local catholic school. With her optimism at an all-time low, she’s set herself a goal to suck it up for a year. 
 
Jillian Reed played professional soccer at a high level; she is now a high school coach. She is arrogant, narcissistic, and pure fire. There is no way she’s going to let the new theatre teacher distract her students with a silly musical. She’s there to make them win, everything else is unworthy. 
 
When the fire queen declares war, Mattie is just stubborn enough to not back down, even when her colleagues tell her it’s foolish to stand up to the formidable Jillian. 
 
But as Jillian’s fire gets hotter so does Mattie’s growing attraction. She starts to see behind the facade, and like a moth to a flame, Mattie can’t seem to stay away. But will it be worth getting burnt? 
 
To start with I have to say that Jillian is one of the most unlikable protags I’ve ever had the pleasure of getting to know. Kudos to this author for basically making me hate her before I loved her. I nearly gave up hope of even liking her, then bam, and it all started with a mug. (Yes, you read right, the gift of a mug, you’ll know what I mean when you read it.) Then suddenly I started to see beyond the raging fire to those gentle glowing embers that give you all the feels. She’s deep, complex, and basically a hot mess, I love her. 
What I loved most about this character is that her fire is never tamed, just redirected, falling in love actually makes her fire burn brighter. I’d love to know more about one Jillian Reed. 
 
Mattie is a darling. I fell in love with her from the start. The story is told from her viewpoint so you really get to know her. She is stubborn, determined, kind, accepting, and fascinating. She’s been through a lot and although she’s not feeling as optimistic as usual, her sun still shines bright behind the clouds. The more I got to know, the more I loved her. She is perfect for Jillian, and Jillian knows it. 
The story in this book is really good. It’s set in St Rita catholic high school for girls. The setting brought in interesting aspects and themes that were woven throughout. To summarise in order to attend or work at this school you have to at least appear to fit in a box. That boxes sides are reinforced. Basically, if you’re not cisgender, straight, and willing to align with strict catholic teachings, then the lid will be taped shut leaving you on the outside. There’s a very don’t ask, don’t tell feeling between the staff, that left me feeling very sad. It’s nearly impossible to form friendships when you are unable to be yourself. If you’re in this environment at work and home, you can imagine what impact that could have on a person, regardless of their age. 
 
Two brilliant twists in this book turned everything I thought about interactions on their head- I had a “are you kidding me” outburst that made my frost queen wife glare at me from over her laptop! 
 
I had so many mixed feelings while reading this story, this author made me work to understand why on earth Mattie didn’t just leave, and not because Mattie is a quitter, but because it took me a while to get why she was putting herself through certain things. And that readers, for me is the sign of a great story. But once I got it, I felt it, and it worked its way into my heart where it will now stay. 
I’m going to stop there before I get into spoiler territory because readers need to experience all this hard, but loveliness for themselves. 
 
Themes of religion, homophobia, genderphobia, and complicated family relationships.
 
A solid first novel from Carrie Byrd. 
Arc received via NetGalley. 
4.5 stars 🌟

Loser of the Year
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

CHEMISTRY! And steam and wit and sass. This debut is so well-written - I was taking notes! Had a really hard time putting this one down. The author did a tremendous job weaving in a discussion of coming out in a religious (Catholic) environment and the trauma/ripple effect it can cause. There were moments that definitely made me teary. The book was a beautiful ode to teachers and coaches as well. There were times when Jillian’s fire felt like a lot but the author did a great job explaining her psychology, and Mattie was the perfect balance. I pretty much loved everything about this one- strong contender for favorite sapphic romance of the year!

Short summary: Mattie’s a divorced and failed actress who moves back home to teach for a year as she gets back on her feet. From the day she arrives at the school, Jillian is cold to her but Mattie won’t go down without a fight and the more she pushes back, the more she’s fired up.

Thanks to Netgalley and Ylva. ARC provided in exchange for an honest review.

This is a debut novel, but it reads like a seasoned romance author wrote it!

Loser of the Year is an enemies-to-lovers lesbian romance with a plot twist you won't believe. When Mattie Belman returns home from a failed acting career to try teaching, the last thing she expects is to be attracted to Jillian Reed, the arrogant soccer coach at St. Rita's, an all-girls Catholic school. But she is!

When the two are forced to work together on a school play, Mattie discovers much more about Jillian than she initially realized. As sparks fly, the two women are forced to confront their attraction while flying under the radar of the school's morality clause.

The plot twist in this book made my jaw drop, but I don't want to give anything away. However, I will say that I have rarely read a book with so much heart. I can empathize with Mattie, who has to start over a little later in life. The frustration of living at home and trying a new career does wear down a person's self-esteem. Kudos to Byrd for capturing that.

I also thoroughly enjoyed learning more about the Jewish faith. Byrd could have beaten people over the head with it. Instead, she incorporated
it into Mattie's character in a way that was real and showcased how Mattie's Jewish background influenced her mannerisms, speech, and everyday life. I drooled a bit when she mentioned Hamentaschen!

Loser of the Year will simultaneously tug at your heartstrings and make you grab a cold washcloth. Seriously - this book is spicy!

10/10 for lots of smexy moments and 10/10 for an amazing debut book!

This has been a delightful and charming romantic story that explores the unlikely pairing of two strong-willed women - theater teacher Mattie and athletic Coach Reed, forced to work together to put on a school play.

Mattie is an unemployed actress but who does not lose faith in finding her role one day. She returns to her hometown to take on a temporary job as a theater teacher at St. Rita Catholic School. In contrast, the no-nonsense Reed is laser-focused on sports and physical excellence. Apparently Jillian Reed is an arrogant former soccer player who only thinks about winning at any cost, so her sudden interest in Mattie is strange to say the least for everyone, especially Mattie.

As they are compelled to collaborate, the inherent sparks between them slowly begin to ignite, much to Mattie’s surprise. Because the way Jillian Reed behaves with Mattie is not normal, so differently than with the rest of her colleagues. Does Mattie have that much power over it, just by facing and not giving in to Coach Reed's affronts?

Religion also plays a role in the story, quite a bit actually, the school where they teach is Catholic, Jillian has a practicing Catholic family, Mattie is Jewish but agnostic.

Beyond the central romance, the book also offers a heartwarming look at the impact teachers can have on their students' lives. As Mattie and Jillian guide their young studentsthrough the play's production, they learn valuable lessons about mentorship, empowerment and the importance of embracing one's passions.

And there are several surprises that have literally brought tears to my eyes, hormones or whatever, but it has touched my soul.

This is probably one of the best debut novels I've read. Truly enjoyable characters, excellent banter, and some pretty deep emotions all make this book a remarkable read. Definitely recommend giving this one a try, 5/5 stars.

If I hadn't been hearing about and looking forward to this book for months, I'd have never known it's a debut. Loser of the Year is an opposites attract/enemies to lovers masterpiece. I'm not sure where to start!

The chemistry between Mattie and Jillian flies off the page from the very beginning, and escalates to five full flames. I can't remember ever encountering a main character like Jillian. She really is one of a kind. The story is told in third person from Mattie's POV, but I sure would love maybe a novella from Jillian's POV on their first day of school and the first couple of months. The subtle humor woven throughout was also spectacular (all those students named Emma?). And there were a couple of plot twists that had my jaw dropping.

I can't imagine the amount of research that went into covering not only teaching acting and theater, but also soccer and Catholicism.

From about 80% on, I found myself literally crying. Every reader knows to expect a happy ending, but I certainly wasn't sure this time. I started reading at around noon on July 4th and didn't go to bed until I had finished it. I cannot recommend it enough, and I can't wait for what's next!

Where to start with all there is to love about Loser of the Year? This book goes deep into questions of belonging, self-acceptance, and what it means to fear running afoul of conditional love. But it does so with such a unique gaze that it resists comparison with works with similar themes. Carrie Byrd deftly explores the fragile moment of shared exploration when someone truly looks and sees all that you are. I loved how the language of longing took turns being playful, desperate, vulnerable, and cutting but always true in tenor to the choices that Jillian and Mattie are wrestling with. Without spoiling anything, there is a clever twist that is so well constructed and provides such a depth of understanding of the interior of these two characters that it echoes and returns like the beat of a drum as their relationship matures. What’s more, it does so with such humor and tenderness that you could absolutely be forgiven for rooting for Jillian and Mattie out loud, with your whole chest, on public transit. Run, don’t walk, to get your copy. Better yet, get two so the person sitting next to you can get to know what all the fuss is about.

I think this is a very well written book that just isn't for me. I found Jillian a very frustrating character and her ego made her annoying to me not charming so I really struggled with seeing the connection between the two main characters and what Mattie actually saw in her. Then there was the aspect of what happened in the past and Jillian's struggle with religion that I found... Awkward? Which I think is very unfair of me but as someone who kinda went through similar feelings as Jillian at the similar age but managed to actually be happy with who I am rather than hide it this felt like seeing an alternative version of myself and it made me vaguely annoyed. And so many people in this book are hung up on things that happened when they were 18, like god you're goddamn adults!

So not a book for me but I think it could work for many many people who are able to get into the romance of it all. And the kids were pretty adorable.

I received an ARC from the publisher via NetGalley.

It's always such a pleasure to read a strong debut!

Matty returns to her parents' home after her divorce from her ex-wife and a string of auditions in Hollywood that didn't yield anything. She's in her late 30s and feels lost. Her mother gets her a temporary teaching position in the local Catholic high school as the theater arts teacher. It's a difficult fit for Matty who is Jewish and who seems to have received the ire of Jillian, the soccer team coach who's won 13 consecutive state championships for the school. The two develop a combative relationship in which Matty refuses to be intimidated by Jillian, unlike the rest of the school. Then the principal informs her that Jillian will be working along side her as co-director of the school's musical.

The enemies-to-lovers, butch-femme romance was a pleasure to read. The writing was strong, especially for a debut; the character development well done; and the author successfully used the issue of religion as a plot point conflict. It's unusual and so refreshing to read about a Jewish MC whose family, while not religious, is notably culturally Jewish. This is rare in Sapphic lit.

I look forward to more from this author and highly recommend this book.

I thoroughly enjoyed this book.
It features 2 women who have both returned to their home town after trying to make it in their chosen careers elsewhere. We are clearly told the reason for Mattie's return but Jillian remains a mystery. She is a mysterious ice queen - who shows herself to be vulnerable and just trying to protect herself.
This book shows the difficulties in living your life while teaching in a Catholic high school where staff sign to agree that they will not do anything in their lives that could be considered to be unsuitable. The catholic code has to be kept.
The women are from different religious backgrounds (Jewish and Catholic) with different levels of religious observance and belief.
Jillian drives a 1991 Audi Quattro - that was my teenage dream car (funny how when I could actually afford one I didn't even consider it).
This book could teach so many life lessons as you see them unfold on the page - and not just for the 2 main characters - there are also the pupils, other staff and their families.
I did have a sense of dread as I read through it wondering what was to come - but that is obviously a sign of the quality of the writing.

It has an epilogue - which I am rather fond of.
This shows a future that is being enjoyed, both by the main characters and some of their pupils - as life goes on and people grow into themselves.

I highly recommend this.

Astounding debut novel!
This story has well a crafted plot trajectory with clever twists I didn't see coming. My initial impression of how the story would go, based on the opening chapters, was mostly wrong; I started the book with some apprehensions and ended up in love with the story, its characters and the author's writing skill. Main characters Jillian and Mattie needle and challenge each other, push each other's buttons, get under skin and into faces and so on; the dynamic between them is electric even when Jillian has moments of being less than likable. Several times you could almost hear the record needle scratch before the showdown kicked off between them. Dialogue is snappy with some harsh but mostly funny quips and zingers tossed between, and at, various characters thru the book; I was snickering more often than not. There is some drama and a few moments when younger characters are cruel but the bulk of the book is funny, the romance both hot and sweet. There were a bunch of Yiddish words and expressions I wasn't familiar with so maybe have an online dictionary or internet search access handy while reading to look them up if their meaning is not clear in the context they're used. The story ending is great, well paced rather than rushed after the climax; a real denouement as well as an ending I have not yet read in lesfic before. It's both original and true to the characters. I got attached to at least one character and highly suggest that you have tissues or a handkerchief close by to catch stray tears leaking from your eyes; I didn't expect to cry but well, the characters made me, thanks to their antics. The wild parallels within the story and callbacks in the dialogue indicate to me an author who is meticulous in outlining the story arc(s) in order to have multiple levels of enjoyment in the story without missing any key information.
I really hope author Carrie Byrd has more stories to tell and publish (ideally soon!) and look forward to reading them when they're available. This is an impressive debut novel that shows a talent for thoughtful storytelling that feeds the spirit, heart, soul, and brain.

I find this book difficult to review as I can’t seems to wrap my head around it.
I struggle a bit with the (internalised) homophobia disguised as religious beliefs, the utter arrogance and bluntness and often times just simple bitchiness of a character and just the entire romantic storyline.

This book is lust at first sight, or is it? We have a very successful football coach who stops at nothing to win and an actress out of a job come theatre teacher at a Christian school. Out and proud theatre people don’t do so well when they need to hide themselves. I struggle with how everything and everyone find their place, while also wondering and wanting to know more, get deeper into it. It was a confusing experience. I guess I liked the book? You just need to be into theatre, hiding yourself and your romance and epic reveals.