After a few pages I came to the conclusion that I didn't want to spend my (very precious) reading time in the head of a (psychotic) white American. So it's not the novel that's interesting enough for me to start reading, it's me and my very limited abilities at the moment. Otherwise, it seems like an interesting analysis of fragile masculinity, and I'd be interested in that under different circumstances.

I would like to extend my heartfelt thanks to M & S Publishing and NetGalley for the complimentary copy of *Schroeder* by Neal Cassidy. This compelling novel is not just a psychological thriller; it delves deeply into the struggles of growing up in a society that often prioritizes outward appearances and achievement over compassion and understanding.
*Schroeder* is narrated in the first person, providing a raw and intimate glimpse into the protagonist's psyche. The story follows Schroeder, a man who has endured a lifetime of abuse and bullying. However, a tragic event acts as a catalyst, pushing him to the brink. With nothing left to lose, he embarks on a fateful day—a day of atonement for all the wrongs he has suffered.
As he navigates through the town of his youth, readers are taken on a journey filled with reflections on his dreams and disappointments. Each familiar sight triggers memories of both joy and pain, creating a poignant backdrop for his internal struggles. This narrative approach not only enhances our understanding of Schroeder's character but also invites us to ponder the broader themes of identity and societal values.
The journey that unfolds raises profound questions about who we are as individuals and what influence our environment has on our self-worth. *Schroeder* serves as a reminder of the importance of compassion in a world that often overlooks the struggles of others.

4 🌟

Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for a copy of this book.

This was a fast read, but not because it was easy - it's because it was horrifying and captivating and I couldn't put it down.

Between grisly murders Schroeder ruminates about life and death and everything else. He sees beauty and ugliness and wonders about the human condition. I found myself enjoying his thoughts as he biked from murder scene to murder scene, as they provided a respite from the brutality of Schroeder's killing spree.

The conclusion of the book, where we find out the real reasons behind all of the violence, was absolutely heartbreaking and a complete gut punch. Definitely a worthwhile read.

4 stars

The pov/narration here can be difficult to get in to, but once you do find the flow the story is very good. Horror (as are all genres) is very subjective, so while this for me is borderline, it still falls in the horror genre.
I find the to be such a fascinating and relevant read.

Rating: 2.5

If your interested in a stream-of-consciousness, social commentary from the perspective of a guy on a killing spree, then you might like this. I personally didn't care for it.

This was such a great read especially for Halloween time. I kept seeing this on goodreads and when I saw it on here I had to have it.

I honestly thought this was going to be more horror & gory or detailed, since he goes on a killing spree, but I was let down. This ended up being more about Schroeder’s life & him ending up at different places to kill them. I was just hoping for a lot more action, or more to happen then just this guys life & riding around on a bike going to different places, and I don’t even think it did a great job of explaining why he felt compelled to do this or why he chose the people he did. This story was also quite confusing, the “chapters” if you can call them that were way too long and I’m still questioning what I just read. I honestly wouldn’t recommend this, sadly, it’s just not worth the read if you’re wanting a horror or gory story because that is not what you get with this story.

Thank you M &S publishing for providing this book for review consideration via NetGalley. All opinions are my own.

This was such a unique read for me as it’s essentially a stream of consciousness of the MMC Schroeder, over the span of one day as he commits multiple murders. It’s unsettling but I couldn’t put it down. The book puts you in the mind of Schroeder, whose behavior ranges from very gruesome killings to very normal observations of the people and world moving around him. There is a juxtaposition of Schroeder committing these heinous acts and then leaving the scene to have lunch at a park while watching children play, smile or nod at a neighbor, etc. that kept me wanting to read more as you don’t truly find out what led him here until the diary entries at the end of the book.

Some of the chapters and internal dialogue felt long winded and unnecessary at times but I really enjoyed the progression and found this to be a very interesting read!

BOOK REPORT
Received a complimentary copy of Schroeder, by Neal Cassidy, from M & S Publishing /NetGalley, for which I am appreciative, in exchange for a fair and honest review. Scroll past the BOOK REPORT section for a cut-and-paste of the DESCRIPTION of it from them if you want to read my thoughts on the book in the context of that summary.

Jesus God in Heaven. I am scarred for life from having read this book.

It was absolutely horrific and awful.

And?

I could not put it down.

Five stars for being a perfect fever dream. One star for the graphic sadism. Five stars for the unexpected (very) ending.

I’d like to think that the world isn’t really as bad as Neal Cassidy makes it out to be in Schroeder, but, alas, I am a thinking person with eyes with which to see and ears with which to hear. In retrospect, I just don’t think it was a very smart decision on my part to read this when my anxiety is already ratcheted up to 11 because of the upcoming 2024 U.S. presidential election. (But, I was actively avoiding a work deadline……you know how it goes.) Those who are hurt tend to hurt others, and one of the primary candidates on the ballot this November 5th seems all-too committed to perpetuating that cycle, including by fostering hatefulness and violence.

So, yeah, even though some of what was in this novel bordered on implausible, it was unfortunately easy to suspend disbelief and buy in to the idea that people will indeed kick you when you’re already down.

I don’t know who all really reads these meanderings of mine, but on the off chance that certain of you do, I will say this: Mother and Nancy—I definitely don’t recommend this for y’all. Anita, Grant, and Tara—I do in particular recommend it for y’all, thinking you probably will have the same reaction/s to it as I did.

Now if you will excuse me, I need to go pet some kitties and watch wholesome short videos about cooking and positive family experiences.

PS
It really irked me that so many people referred to the protagonist of this book as a serial killer in their reviews. Nope, nope, nope. He was a spree killer bent on revenge. There is a difference.

PPS
Note To Future Kristi: Read this guy’s other book that’s already published, and anything else he might write.

PPPS
Coming back the next day to add that I remembered in the grocery store this afternoon how happy I was that I am not a user of the pen mentioned more than once in the book. This is particularly important to me given that:

- I am a pen freak.
- I have sociopathic tendencies. Well, kinda sorta. A few, maybe. The kind that came in handy in my corporate career days.

I would have been disturbed beyond words had my relatively new box of "good pens" been the same brand/type.

That is all. As you were.

DESCRIPTION
A gripping new psychological thriller by author Neal Cassidy, SCHROEDER, weaves together elements of the literary thriller/horror genre, stream-of-consciousness narration, and critical social commentary.

hen an ordinary young man wakes up in his quiet neighborhood on a day seemingly like all the others, the city he’s lived in all his life has no idea what’s about to befall it once he sets out on a day-long bike ride carrying a purposefully packed backpack and a definitive plan.

Who is Schroeder, and what motivates his brutal killing spree? As he cycles from one victim’s home to the next, keeping pace with the rhythm of a city that burgeons to life under an increasingly dazzling sun exposing both its beauty and vivacity and its dark, dirty, underbelly, Schroeder lays bare his dreams, disappointments, delights, and dismays, establishing himself as a compelling contemporary antihero. The day rolls ominously towards its climax through hectic city streets, lush suburban gardens, stately mansions, and decrepit housing projects, punctuated by Schroeder’s reflections on a society in shambles and a deeply damaged, if not broken, humanity—but not without revealing life’s boundless wonder and infinite possibilities for joy and redemption through moments that are within—and yet tragically beyond—Schroeder’s grasp. A tell-all denouement brings Schroeder out of the shadows of his actions, the pathos of his questions about the kind of world we live in lingering long after.

This book was not for me. I rarely do not finish a book but unfortunately this was one. I found it too gory and couldn't understand why or how he picked the victims. He is definitely a serial killer with different methods of killing with each victim. Not your typical serial killer. Possibly at the end of the story it is explained on the who, why and how.. The writing was good being very descriptive in both locations and actions. Received a free copy thru Netgalley and this is my honest voluntary review

Thank you so much to NetGalley and the publisher for providing me with an ARC to review

4 stars!

I jumped at the chance to read this. The premise really pulled me in and I honestly got so interested in what I was in for as soon as I read stream-of-consciousness narration and 'Who is Schroeder, and what motivates his brutal killing spree? '

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This though hit in a way I didn't expect. Your taken on this journey of his thoughts and the disturbing things he does. You know you shouldn't like him but you can't help but actually root and feel for the dude at some points which made the reading experience a whole different.

The writing may get some used to for some but it's a very interesting read!!

Unfortunately this book wasn’t it for me. I tried to pick it back up several times but each time I couldn’t get into it, which is a shame because the premiss sounded like something I would enjoy. DNF :(

3.5 stars, rounded up. This is a difficult book to rate because the subject matter is so dark and the first 85% of the novel is an unrelenting stream of disturbing behavior with very graphic details. However, it is also compelling and once I settled into the author’s style of very long sentences, I could appreciate the style.

Schroeder is the first person narrator and the reader is essentially in his mind the entire time. He has been bullied his entire life and never helped by those in authority. One day, he commits several atrocities that are seemingly disconnected. Until close to the end of the novel, we do not know why he is doing these things to specific people. It is unlike anything I’ve read previously but be warned that a strong stomach is needed to get through some of the details.

Thanks to NetGalley, the author and M&S Publishing for the opportunity to read and review this digital ARC.

I unfortunately did not like this one, the writing style was incredibly hard for me to follow - while I'm sure it was an intentional choice, it felt like it needed more edits or something. the premise was fun but I just couldn't get into it, which sucks because I was stoked about this one!

This was a wild ride. The writing style took some getting used to as the sentences were so long and rambling, but they were very effective at mimicking the internal thoughts of the character. It was such a well-written story and I couldn’t help but to empathize with Schroeder despite the terrible things he did. It’s hard to say too much without spoilers, but this book will definitely stick with me for a long time!

Thank you to NetGalley and M&S Publishing for a free copy of this book in exchange for my honest review!

This is an interesting book. The writing style is different from what I am used to reading.

The cover got me, as it wasn't overly complicated and there was something intriguing and eery about it. This book is very very eerie and disturbing.

I think Stephen King fans will enjoy this.

This specific book I was not able to get completely lost in. This is totally a personal preference.

Thank you for the opportunity to read this! I appreciate it!

Unfortunately, I could not get into this book. The run on sentences I feel like were supposed to mimic the main characters internal thought process, but it made the book so hard to follow and keep my interest. I really tried to push through but single sentences were taking up full pages or more and full of commas and it was too disorienting for me to keep my interest.

Schroeder by Neal Cassidy is one of my favourite books I've read this year. Once I started reading I couldn't put it down and it's one of the few books I have read in one sitting! I thoroughly enjoyed it from beginning to end and couldn't wait to see what happened next. The ending tied the whole story together and explained perfectly why the character did what they did. I would recommend Schroeder and will definitely pick up more of Neal Cassidy's work in the future!

This book had a great plot with intriguing characters. I’ll definitely be looking out for more from this author.

More like 4 1/2 ⭐️
This is an inside look to thoughts of a killer. Basically the inner workings of someone who has snapped and decided to go on a killing spree. First, this felt very real, very authentic. I could definitely see this being how someone who has been abused and bullied would think about things. My biggest complaint is how it’s written…run on sentences galore! So. Many. Commas. It literally gave me a feeling of panic reading it, to the point where my brain (in some weird self preservation) would almost turn off and begin to wander. It was very frustrating. The content wasn’t bothersome, just how he wrote it. It is very hard to stay focused when there aren’t any paragraphs also. These chapters were semi long and only consisted of a few paragraphs. There were times where it seemed one paragraph was 3 or 4 pages. Combine that with so many run-on sentences and it was very difficult to stay focused.
It is gory, which doesn’t particularly bother me, in fact, it really is needed in this type of story and I appreciated it being just gory enough where it helped the story along. Also, I did become invested in the main character. It’s a strange ability for an author to be able to write such a likable character that you want to root for, but at the same time disgusted and appalled by what he does.
Then the ending…damn. The ending was what did it for this book. I think if the ending part was at the beginning, it would have had a much different effect. The way Cassidy did it though, it was perfect. Super emotional impact. Definitely put things into perspective.
Overall, if you can get past some of the, I feel, writing issues (they probably bothered me more than most), I do recommend this for the story. This was my first time reading a book by Cassidy, but this made me want to read more of his books.
***Thank you NetGalley, M&S Publishing, and Neal Cassidy for an advanced copy in exchange for an honest review.***