Jenna Adams’ This Is Me Trying is undeniably an addictive read, but it’s a heavy one for a coming-of-age YA novel. Readers should heed the content warnings at the start, as the story delves into complex and often uncomfortable themes.

The novel follows Brooke from age 14 to her early twenties and Matt from 17 to his late twenties, though the dual POVs make it clear that this is primarily Brooke’s story. Set in late-2000s Britain, the two characters meet in a drama club, where they’re cast as Romeo and Juliet. What begins as an older, outgoing upperclassman helping a shy freshman come out of her shell soon turns into a forbidden romance, particularly after Matt turns 18. While Matt’s own immaturity is evident, it’s unsettling to read how he encourages Brooke to lie and hide their relationship, blurring the lines of consent and trust.

The novel’s premise hinges on Brooke eventually confronting Matt about their relationship, but this pivotal moment doesn’t occur until the final 10% of the book—and when it does, it’s rushed and glossed over. While Brooke’s personal growth is evident as she navigates therapy and faces her past, Matt remains stagnant, trapped in a cycle of nostalgia and regret.

The pacing of the story feels unbalanced, with over half of the book focused on Brooke’s teenage years, leaving her adult journey and the resolution feeling underdeveloped. The abrupt ending adds to the sense of incompleteness, leaving questions about whether Brooke and Matt truly grew as individuals.

Ultimately, This Is Me Trying had the potential for an impactful exploration of healing and accountability, but its execution fell flat for me. While Brooke’s journey is compelling, the overall narrative left me wanting more depth and closure.