'Extraordinary. A story about belonging in liminal spaces, and longing for things seemingly just out of reach. A searing, beautiful book.' Kiley Reid, author of Such a Fun Age

Susan “Zuzu” Braeburn is almost forty. She has the life she’s always dreamed of – a beautiful house, a child, a successful partner. But something between her and her wife has been off for a long time, and she can’t help but wonder if she’s chosen wrong at every turn. Choosing to live with her white mother over her Black father in the divorce, choosing to become a lawyer rather than an artist, and most importantly, choosing to marry Agnes despite her unrequited feelings for her male best friend Cash. When an unexpected loss takes her back to her hometown, the “what-ifs” in her mind become too loud to ignore.
Warm, candid, and with no easy answers on sex, aging, or friendship, this is an astonishing debut.