I met them in a chatgroup called Deathbed. The group was made up of strangers and those who liked to kill themselves. They were obsessed with an urban legend called Sue Side, an entity who promised death’s sweet embrace.

When I held the chopping knife at my throat ready to make the final cut, I saw her out of the corner of my eye, as if I were not supposed to see her. She saw me, though, and took me to the bad feeling room. Every time she killed me, she took me there. And in the afterlife I was shown, I realised the truth about my daughter, how I loved her all along, even after I convinced her to hate me.

Publisher Warning: This story deals extensively with suicide and people who fantasise about committing suicide. It is a dark story with no happy endings. Please do not read the book if you find these issues upsetting.